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Save Me From My Cage

25 Tuesday Aug 2015

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image  I was stopping by a clients house yesterday morning I have done some work on and as I was passing through his back yard I noticed a Raccoon that was trapped in a cage that was set last night as the yard has been trampled by them lately.

Well it was around 9am when I saw him which means he has been there for sometime and as I passed him my heart felt his energy and I looked into his eyes and saw a child afraid of what was to come. That unknown that seemed ominous to him as he was in a place he could not escape and his autonomy was lost to the owner of his new cage.

As I went inside and spoke to the family about some buisiness I kept thinking of my new friend, scared in his confined space.

Before parting I asked my client if he would like me to take the raccoon in the cage and bring it into the woods some ways away. Which he agreed too.

Who knows why some feel or see more then others. When you do though it can feel at times like a tug of war. A battle in your heart to be okay with things you want to make right but whether you can or not seems like a fight between your conscience and your heart. Your heart speaks with out words or social acceptance were as your conscience is a scale balancing it all. Trying to find a way to do what feels right yet gives your sense of self worth a imaginary reward in thought.

As I loaded the cage into the jeep I could see in my new friends eyes a fear and loneliness of something he knew he was going to miss. I speak with words to my fuzzy friends but I know it’s what comes from that Chakra in my heart that they understand and I focus that like my third eye and give them what I feel which I see is all I really can.

As pulled along side a thin stretch of woods by a riverside I set the cage facing the woods of his new home and as I opened the door I said “Ilove you and good bye” without words but instead a feeling I don’t own but am able to convey from a place that connects me to were everything is one.

He didn’t run away. In fact he never made a noise the whole time we were together. It reminded me of myself facing a scary fate and knowing nothing I can say will do any good so words aren’t worth the thought they think they own.

I saw myself in him and felt like a failure for not being able to do what he wanted which was to be set free in the yard and reunited with his mother who had sat beside the cage he was in for a few hours at dawn. Which the client had told me about. If I want to be saved and I can’t save my fuzzy little friend and all I have is empty words then what good am I.

“Vows are spoken to be broken, feeling are intense words are trivial, pleasures remain so does the pain, words are meaningless and forgettable. All I ever wanted, all I ever needed is here in my arms. Words are very unnecessary, they can only do harm” Depeche Mode, Enjoy The Silence

So as my scared new friend slowly stepped out of his cage and into a foriegn home I couldn’t help watch him take those slow steps and feel what he was feeling walking into the unknown.  I felt guilty for taking him from his home and making walk through fear to create a new home for him to own. I see it as my own fear walking through the dark. It doesn’t matter whether it is day or night as the unknown doesn’t live in a shadow of the sun or a reflection of the moon. It is everything that is and letting go of that minuscule world I think I own to become one with all that is, is a fear of letting go to what I know which by my nature is something I don’t want to do. Even though I see the road to take and can behold the wealth of stepping into the unknown it’s still something “I” don’t want to do as all “I” wants is to know and save myself and anyone else from the fear of letting go.

“I’m the man in the box, won’t you come and save me, save me.  He who tries will be wasted, feed me eyes now you’ve sewn them shut. I’m the dog that gets beat, won’t you come and save me, save me” Man In The Box, Alice N Chains

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Digging Deep

02 Sunday Aug 2015

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Seeing The Fear

31 Friday Jul 2015

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. The feelings we have in dealing with certain situations that cause us to act in a manner we regret is a example of “Cyclic Behavior”. Cyclic Behavior is mentioned in the previous blog entry image“A Ghost In You”.

That behavior in us that responds to fear is not recognized for what it is. That is the ghost in us we don’t see. The thing that is controlling us but we think of it in a way that it doesn’t appear to us as it is. It hides in us in a shell that is chamelion and we react in a way to push the fear away because we experience it in a emotion and don’t see it in us as a ghost but instead we think it is real. It isn’t real however and the fear that it traps us in, lives in a manner that survives in us by pretending to be something it isn’t. We push it away by reactions of anger, judgement, depression, excitement or any manner we act in that causes us to feel remorse after it because of how we reacted to it.

That cyclic behavior we manifest is a pattern of behavior we created in our childhood to deal with feelings we were incapable of at the time because we weren’t given the right emotional childhood development and as such we never created the correct coping mechanism to deal with things like confrontation, criticism and maintaining boundaries of behavior that allowed us to have self confidence in addressing life in all its expressions in appropriate ways.

The remorse, the depression and excitement are all part of the cycle of behavior that creates itself over and over again. This is how we continually push the fear away in ways that allows us to avoid addressing it and thus letting the fear continue to control us.

Addiction is looked at by many as the use of exogenous substance to create a euphoric feeling that we become dependent upon. Addiction however is not limited to the use of some external substance that creates “the high”. Addiction is the coping mechanism we find to dull our pain and medicate ourself with not only a external drug but also a endorphin response to stop the pain. That metabolic release of endorphins created by certain behavior is the coping mechanism we use to feel better about situations in life we do not know how to address. The addiction, what ever it is, is the coping mechanism we use to treat the emotional pain we experience from our cyclic behavior. Even if we are able to stop the addictive behavior we use to treat our emotional pain with and don’t learn how to treat that pain in a appropriate way we will find another addiction to deal with the fear in us.

Addiction is often thought of as illegal or antisocial behavior but it is much more then that. It is any behavior we engage in to “feel” better that causes us to feel remorse from it afterwards. In that awareness we can see addiction in a different light. It’s quite common for us to view many as a success in a figurative sense from a societal standpoint. Be it wealth, fame or recognition in many different ways but often as we learn a more deeper view of the person we can see how there life was filled with fear and the succes we saw them as having was merely a way to hide from the fear or the ghost they did not wish to see in them self.

We have to first see the fear in us before we can address it. If all we do is react to our fear and then put a bandaid on the remorse we feel because of it. We then do not do anything to treat it. It’s seeing the fear or looking at the chameleon it hides behind and responding to the situation that triggers our fear in a “correct” manner is what enables us to create the appropriate coping mechanisms we need to resond to life and not react to a fear in life. The pause that we embrace when confronted with fear is the space we need to have to say no to fear and yes to what is appropriate. It isn’t a magical wand that we somehow find in life that heals our fear, pain and addiction. It is the ability we find in us to pause before we react that allows us to respond to life and not react to it with a behavioral defense to fear.

Einstein, “The same mind that created the problem can not fix the problem”

The “strength” we find in that pause allows us to respond to life and not react to it, is how we discover a connection to something innately in us. It’s a connection we have to life and not our thinking that frees us of our own limitations and allows us to grow in ways we never knew. It is because we allow our thinking to trap us in our our fear that creates the cage that holds us. It is letting go of that thinking that allows us to know something greater then it and then be directed by life and not how we think. Our thinking is the crux of our problem so being able to step out of the thinking that our fear lives in is what frees us of it.

Buddha, “no one saves us but ourself, no one can and no one may, we ourselves must walk the path”

Broken

07 Sunday Jun 2015

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“Who are You.                                           cause I really want to know                              I know there is a place you walked            Where love falls from trees.                           My heart is a broken cup.                                 I only feel right on my knees                             I spit out like a sewer hole                              Yet still recieve your kiss.                                How can I measure up to anyone know               After such a love as this.                                 Come on tell me                                             Who are you                                                    Cause I really want to know”                            The Who, Who Are Youimage

If my mind is not capable of understanding “What is” which is everything, and it’s quite obvious the mind doesn’t know everything. On the contrary, the mind is a cartoon trying to create a understanding of what it can never know. So the words we use to know reality, ourselves or the life we live is pretty much pointless. If you can conceptualize that inability we have in using our mind to know sonething we never can then you can see that the best we ever can know of what we are and what life is, is meaningless.

What ever we think we are is the same as a grain of sand compared to the making of a desert. It is irrelevant. Yet even though it is irrelevant the mind in its own nature wants to know.

The mind is so reality can be percieved. Most scientist will tell you that reality is only contingent upon our own observation of it. So reality is a illusion of merely what we think. That prism of reflection is the ghost in the mirror. It is a idea looking at what it wants to know but never can. That observation gives “everythig” a reflection of itself. It is the mirror that lets “what is” which is “everything” see itself.

In that obscure perspective of seeing what you can never know is why we are broken. That “broken” is not a thought of good or bad. It is what allows Love or God to see itself.

So a conceptual identity is not real. Instead it is the shadow wanting to be what it is the shadow of or the reflectiom in the mirror wanting to be the image it’s reflecting. That is why the mind lives in fear. The mind wants to “be” which it never can. That is our deepest fear. Our inability to let go of that conceptual understanding and be the intrinsic nature of who we are that is not known to us in a understanding of thought Is our deepest fear.

So as I fall to my knees in my “brokenness” I can use that “broken” to see what the mind obscures in thought.

“Ashes to Ashes                                           Funk to funky                                                  We know major Tom 4 a junkie                         Strung out in Heavens High                             Headed for a all-time low                                Time and again I tell myself                               I will stay clean tonight                                   But the little green wheels are following me       Oh no, not again                                              I’m stuck with a valuable friend”                       David Bowie, Ashes To Ashes

So as I ask myself why I’m broken, the understanding is beyond the mind or thought. As it is necessary to be broken from the minds perspective to escape the cage that “knowing” traps us in. So my “broken” is a crack in the glass that lets me see through what I want to know. By looking to see and not know I can “be” and in being I can point at what I see. So what I write is not what I know. It is what I see. So if someone reads what I write and wants to know Instead of look at what the words are pointing at, it will make no sense to the mind as it’s not of the mind.

So my burden then can be my salvation and what I point at is seeing that there is no personal salvation. There is no you or I. We are all one. We is everything and as such if my mind, thought or ego looks to save itself it is lost to itself. The thought of “I” creates the cage that separates something from everything. The something is the shadow, the ego or the thoughts of “I am”. So as I live in a perception of thinking I can look to become “everything” which is my true nature and by letting go of what I think I am. I become what I am.

So as I look to save everything besides myself, I in turn save everything which is my true self. It then doesn’t matter what I or anyone else thinks. For by being concerned about what someone else thinks is as pointless as being concerned about what I think.

So courage then is to each of us to walk with our “brokenness” not as a crutch or a pity. It’s to look in it for our true nature. The everything that is behind the something we think we are. The same as the Sun and the Moon are in the sky regardless of whether we see them or not. As it is our mind that wants to judge ourself on what we or others think of us. Our faith or courage then is to be okay with ourself whether or not we “think” we are or aren’t okay.

“Oh let the Sun beat down upon my face        Stars to fill my dream                                    I’m a traveler of both time and space, to be where I have been                                           To sit with elders of the gentle race, this world has seldom seen                                        They talk of days for which they sit and wait and all will be revealed                                          Talk and song from tounges of lifting grace, whose sounds caress my ear                         But not a word could I relate                            The story was quite clear”                               Led Zeppelin, Kashmir

There Is A Light That Never Goes Out

25 Monday May 2015

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What I “think” I know, isn’t. It’s only a thought trying to interpret what the mind perceived. Something is experienced and the brain attempts to understand it. A aspect of “awareness” is recognizing the limitation of what “I” or what the brain that “thinks” has. It can’t know “what is” or “reality”. It can only think it in the confines of the brains limitations.

In seeing that one comes to know that image nothing is as it seems.”‘Cause if nothing is the way it seems Then this life is just a haunted dream And all this love is just falling down through these years He says I think of the beauty I’ve had And all it does is make me feel so sad First they make you think like your riding high Then they toss you off in the sky And all this life is just falling down through the years” Steve Winwood, Judgement Day

So the good and the bad are not what they appear to be. As that good and bad is life speaking to me. I have to embrace the perceived good and bad as both are ways life Is communicationing to me. Life doesn’t use words or thought to teach me. Life responds to life and not some contruct of or what a brain thinks. Once you see nothing, you see it in evrything “When I try to understand she just opens up her hands” Eddie Vedder, Cold Hard Sun

If I am not what I think I am, which is nothing more then words trying point at the limitation of my brain, then I find the beauty in life in everything. So the bad or the good is not real. They are something the brain thinks so it can believe it knows what it never can. What frees us of our limitations is not believing what we think we know is real. It’s recognizing those limitations of what we think, that frees us from our minds inability to know what it can not and we then by not holding onto what we think, we can escape the walls of thought that block us from “seeing” the intelligence of what created us.

Words limit us to a understanding of thought if we only “think” what they mean. So instead of thinking we know what a word means we can escape the wall of thought that limits a word by, instead, seeing what it points too. so thinking of money instead of some piece of paper or a bank statement you can think of money as a way of service or helping someone or the world then you escape the limiations of a definition and instead find a practical to make money in many ways. That then translates to prosperity and as you serve prosperity prosperity serves you.

It’s taking a word and instead of thinking it in q box, finding a way to see something without the restrictions of understanding it or “knowing” it.

That “Nothing” of no thought is the pure potentiality of everything. It’s the nothing that the mind thinks over that is the creation of everything. It’s easy to “think” the word nothing and not see what it points too. It’s only till you let go of the thought of nothing will you see what it points too. Once you see that something you then see it in everything. Thought can not conceptualize one in a figurative sense. Thought can only think one in contrast to something else. So as you think there is always two or a duality. Thought creates a need to understand in relation to something else. By thinking you create a contrast to something. That is duality. Duality lives in thought. The non duality of no mind is nothing. It is a intelligence that creates everything. So seeing that intelligence of everything or nothing and attempting to share to someone in words using the brain is why words can only point to it. They can’t define it because by its essence non duality, nothing, God, Mohammed, or what have you is the nothing you can not know that creates everything. So as you see and not think, you see nothing in everything while anyone else you try to convey that too who only looks to know it will be lost trying to think it. If someone points to nothing with words and others see that and not think it they then see nothing, Buddha, Christ or what have you in everything. If you attempt to put what someone points at into words and you “think” the word means something then you no longer see non duality, you become a thought of duality. Our thinking is unique to our experiences. As it is our experiences that create the ideas of how we perceive our reality. That contrast of the one of everything to the duality of thought is why no-one understands something in exactly the same way as someone else. So as one person see’s the one of non-duality they can not help but put it in words of there own making. To take nothing and point at it with words creates something if you think it. That something is duality.The nothing is lost or overlooked in the duality of thinking you know.

“Think about it, there must be higher love. Down in the heart or hidden in the stars above. Without it, life is a wasted time. Look inside your heart. I will look inside mine. Things look so bad everywhere In this whole world, what is fair? We walk blind and we try to see falling behind in what could be. I could light up the night with my soul on fire. I could make the sun shine from pure desire. Let me feel that love come over me. Let me feel how strong it could be. Bring me a higher love                              Steve Winwood, Bring Me A Higher Love

Looking In

26 Thursday Feb 2015

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We all think the reality we live. Some attempt to overcome the limitations of what we think and find an intelligence inside us that shows a reflection we experience outside of us. Others look at what they experience and the reality they perceive as who they are. What they think they are is what they believe they are. A reality externally based as opposed to an internally based reality. “I Am” as opposed to “The I Am That I Am”. The ego as opposed to the observer of the ego. The control as opposed to humility. To even comprehend this means you are drawn to an internal awareness. If not, you would only see the one side of the coin. The duality of life is all you would know. The good verses the bad. This does not make sense to an ego based individual. To see the non-duality that reflects the duality is the awakening or the transition from an unconscious reality to a conscious reality. The understanding that the thought is both a conscious voice and an unconscious reaction. To walk in utter conscious reality is a pointless topic to me. The idea of “no struggle” is a misnomer, as we all struggle between the two and if our existence has a purpose it is the struggle to be or become aware that allows awareness to be. Otherwise awareness would not be if there wasn’t a opposite to it. The dark allows the light. The hot the coldimage and so on. So if our struggle is to see the light. To walk a path to awareness then our struggle is not bad and awareness is not good. They each are so the other can be. Words only point in a direction and they don’t mean anything except to the person that wants to think they understand what it means. The one that doesn’t want to limit themselves to a understanding their mind wants to think it knows and would rather look to the path of a intelligence that creates life will then look to separate themselves from the thought that limits them. Words are used in many different ways to say the same thing from a different perspective. Words like anger, shenpa, attachment, fear, worry all are a thought in a desire to know a feeling we experience. We want to label it. Granted some words look to identify how a feeling affects us while others look to give the feeling an identity. Whatever way we define or interpret our feelings we can see how anger, depression, shenpa, worry and so on is our subconscious manifesting itself from a thought to an emotion. That awareness to look at our emotions as the physical expression of our subconscious can offer us the opportunity to address the subconscious we are often oblivious too. By seeing our external reaction to life we can take that and use it as a sign pointing inward to heal the worry, anger or fear. If we only look to fix the external conditions that manifest our internal or subconscious reality then we never fix the, so called problem. The subconscious then has no choice but to reinvent the “problem” in the same or another way. That, to me, is karma. Karma is not good or bad. Karma is what is and as long as we think over karma or “what is”, what is has no other choice but to express itself. “What Is” then is life. It is the intelligence that creates everything and as long as we label “what is” with a thought that limits it, the thought will limit us from the intelligence of life or God. Our pain, anger, shenpa or struggle is the path for us to search inside our self to discover the intelligence of life that allows us to overcome our thoughts that keep us trapped in a existence of good and bad, dark and light, warm and cold, hate and like That thing we can’t label or know is a peace beyond any understanding. The heaven in our hell. That then is the “reward” of letting go of what we think we know (good vs bad). To uncover beneath those thoughts the intelligence that is what we are. The ‘I AM’ that I am. The door from what I think to what I am. That step of looking in and not out is the action only we can take. No one can take away the thought we think that limits us to an identity of “I am”. Only we can look past the thought of “I Am” to be the “I am that I am”. So what am I to do now, you might ask yourself. That is the journey inside you that you walk alone. No-one can walk that path inside you, but you. The best anyone can do is offer their own experience to you and that can offer you the ability to see your own struggle in theirs. Some of us can find the path of letting go of the thoughts that limit is by faith alone. A unquestioning belief in a higher power offers the antidote. Some look at a scientific relationship to that intelligence in such areas as quantum physics and so on that show the intelligence hidden behind the thought that thinks it knows. Others can look at psychology and see how ideas like “engrams” which are ingrained memories often from our childhood have a stranglehold on us in our life. Keeping us locked in memories we can’t let go of. In my book “Digging Deep” I talk about addressing that ambiguous path we all will face when we step of out or our ego and look at ourself in a observing manner. Having the will to look for the answer is what will give us the answer. Seeing the fear, anger, depression in an observing manner and not becoming the anger, worry and fear is the path to walking through it. Most of us want to turn away from it or find something “good” to cover our “bad”. Pausing instead and walking into that feeling will give us the answer to letting go of it and becoming more than anything we can know. A peace from inside us that overshadows any impermanent feelings of happy or sad the external world can offer.

Undertow

18 Sunday Jan 2015

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imageIn a previous writing titled “Dropping In” I spoke about over coming engrams before they grew and dominated or controlled our behavior. To get to that place of self awareness though that can see the wave of emotion the engram creates growing is quite a achievement. As such it leaves many who are trapped in a life of turmoil and unable to see the current that brought them to where they are; Including myself, paralyzed. Which often leaves us coming to terms with our life by marginalizing the consequences of our behavior and feelings to adapt to our conditions that we feel helpless too.
Most of us simply believe we are the emotion we feel. We don’t see a difference in the emotion we feel and who we are. We think we are depressed, angry, right, wrong, a failure or a success. We don’t realize its the thought we think that is responsible for how we feel. What we think is what we believe we are. How ever, if you remove the thought of failure or success from the mind that thinks it, the person is still the same regardless. All that changes is what we think. That can make sense theoretically for some, yet practically for many it is not a attainable quality. We see Bill Gates as successful and the man asking for money on the corner as a failure. As we think someone is, is how we judge someone. As we think ourself is as we judge ourself.
Gnosis is the concept “As within so without” also “As above so below”, the words written by the Greek poet Hermessianex. This process of consciousness transcends throughout humanity in Buddhism, Christianity, doctrines of Plato and his mentor Socrates, to the present day in spiritual existence, interpersonal reward and external success in the world around us. As we manifest a consciousness in us, that is what is manifested outside of us. The hour glass of internal to external. How we perceive that construct in our consciousness is the space between a physical domain (our body) and a virtual domain (God, field of pure potentiality or a universal intelligence that transcends everything). So the space between, the within and the without, can be known as The Quantum Domain (consciousness or mind). That vector between the two is the gateway that allows us to manifest the existence we live in which is our perception of reality. The vastness of space outside us and the universe is the same as within us. So we are not lmited to a aspect of thought that looks outside itself to what it thinks it never can behold. The ability to search inside us for what ever we perceive we are, is outside what we perceive outside us. The ability to connect to everyone is the ability to connect to ourself.
To change our reality about us (our world we perceive) we need to change our perception inside us of how we think. “As we think so we are” Buddhist proverb
That is not as simple as it sounds which is why religion looks too the people who mastered this, as their savior. We look for insight in how to find that ability in us to manifest a conscious reality outside us, instead of being a victim to a unconscious reality based upon the fears and insecurities we harbor inside us but don’t identify with consciously.
So the struggle we have inside us is to uncover the unconscious behavior that we exhibit as a result of the subconscious thoughts we think.
We can see these principles laced throughout our history from Confucius who’s teachings united a internally war driven China to a cohesive Han dynasty that was based on a philosophy known as “Ren”. This ideology of his teachings was based on “The Golden Rule” which was the foundation of the Han dynasty. “What you do not wish for yourself, do not do to others”. Which united a war diveded China. This proverbial concept of what is known as Gnosis, is in Chinese history as it is throughout our own in the leaders of our country that are known for looking to unite us. Be it MLK, JFK, back to Abraham Lincoln who wrote in the darkest hours of our country’s civil war that was ripping us in two “The dogmas of the quiet past are inadequate to the stormy present. We must think anew and act anew”. Meaning we must replace the thoughts that brought us to were we are in order to create peace between us to unite us.
It is seeing the “path” behind the words of our great leaders throughout time that is what saves us from ourself. As man has a way of grabbing on to the words spoken and twist them to a meaning that defines a self serving purpose. So the direction or vision the words point to is ignored and instead a self serving meaning is attached to a word that was nothing more then a sign pointing to a direction to follow. This is what warps the vision of a prophet to a self serving prophecy.
The inaction then of not defining the word is what will enable someone to see the direction it points too.
A difficulty man has in seeing the vision of prophets like Christ, Buddha, Moses … or spiritually guided visionaries who are intellectually gifted like Einstein is that what makes sense to their intellect and written in words do not make sense to another with a lesser intelligence or gift to see past the illusion of thought. Meaning when Einstein said, “the same mind that created the problem can’t fix the problem”, that made perfect sense to him in his alphabet of knowledge. Einstein didn’t need B & C to get from A to D. Many us though need to follow B & C to recognize how to get to D. For many of us to comprehend the way to have a different mind then the one that created the problem is aloof to us. We need to understand how our subconscious influences our consciousness to create a different consciousness or perspective to “fix the problem”.
If our subconscious is what determines what we perceive as good or bad, exm. A insult or a compliment. Then we need to examine our thinking that makes us feel offended or flattered. Letting go of the ropes of thought that pull us in a direction to respond a certain way to good and a certain way to bad is what will create the original thinking that reinvents a old mind to a new mind.

To even try and follow this train of thought is a task and something that I can understand someone turning there back on, especially if life is serving a adequate slice of pie to make up for the hurt. I mean that as its easy to feel dissillusioned inside yet fill a basket of achievement with personal gains be it money, prestige, attraction, status fame… what have you to use as a way to overlook our self reflected feelings of inadequacy.

So for what ever reason, be it the loss of a relationship and feeling alone, loosing your status or exposing your flaws. It often is related to a response to pain that causes us to examine or scrutinize the way we think and how are emotions dictate our behavior. With that said, what can I do to free myself trapped in a huge wave I cannot swim away from? What tools can I draw from that will allow me to rise above my unknowingly chosen fate?

The thinking we engage in is why we are where we are. To change where we are we need to think differently. That may sound good or make sense but we are still a victim to ourself as we cannot think what we don’t know. We only think what we think.

So if we recognize our thoughts are what have us trapped in the perception we are in we need to have oversight on the way we got to where we are and the steps we can take to walk out of the maze of what we think.

I spoke about engrams, what they are, how they are replayed more then others and why that is. (If you have taken the time to read this far and follow the path the words point at then I encourage you to read “Digging Deep” before going further if you have not already as I am talking a lot about words and definitions from that blog entry).

Being a victim to our own perspective and undoing the engram that has us trapped in its electric impulse path is going against what we feel and want to do. The negativity we feel is created and manifested in depression, fatigue, feelings of failure, inadequacy and not fitting in to name a few. We need to override that self manifested impulse.

Feelings of accomplishment attract the same and give rise to self worth and being content. If we don’t feel those emotions and qualities in us then we are drawn to behavior that reflects its own. Which for the point of this discussion are negative feelings.

Observing this in ourself is the key to unlocking the chains that hold us where we are. We need to do something that gives a feeling of accomplishment which will progress on itself and break us free of the feelings and emotions of the engram that holds us to itself. We then by accomplishing something, spark a engram that is in us that we have felt the emotion of success, content or accomplishment before. Its taking the baby steps of walking out of fear, pain and lack of self worth that can allow us to overcome.

I’m commenting about my own research, personal self work, a perception of God and the success and failure I have used to help myself. I don’t say any of this is easy or a simple question of “knowing”. On the contrary it is a fear of undertaking that can feel like success is measured in inches traveling miles.

For myself, admitting and recognizing their is no finish line is what helps me breath when the walls of fear appear to be caving in on me.

The saving grace I find is that if I do the math it all adds up. Not everyone wants to do the math though and others judge success on a completely different track. So success for me can appear as failure to them and the success so many want to wear looks to me like its made of plastic and is hollow inside.

I believe that this vague undertaking I am pointing too is the key to freeing people from many types of addictive behavior. Addiction is beyond drugs and alcohol and it runs rampid in our society. Obesity, smoking, residivism in our jails, even the news feeds a need to draw on emotions that damage our well being, induce stress and keep us locked in a desire for more.

Punishment for crimes and information of the emotional and physical consequences of the behavior does not fix the problem as the fear or consequences come after the engram that created the problem. The will of restraint cannot win the tug of war the engram puts on the unconscious intent.

In my next writing, “Something New Is Brewing”, I speak about the need to look into the problem to find the answer and as long as we don’t we will be trapped in circle of our own making. Stereotyping and public opinion is why we are the country who imprisons more of its own population then any other. We need to throw out our answer to fix the problem. It is a mechanism of our society to think the solution is the making of the problem and look to the problem to fix the problem which it can never do. Hate can not fix hate and punishment doesn’t heal the external symptoms of a internal scar.

Emotional Intelligence . .

08 Thursday Jan 2015

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.  We don’t understand things as they are. We understand things from our ability to understand. Meaning its more about wanting to live in the limitations of what we know that threatens us from knowing anything more then what we do know.

The more willing we are to let go of what we know, the more apt we are to know what we don’t know. So if life is simply the abundance of experiencing everything, we then can serve our evolution by letting go of the constraints of what we think we know that conflicts with our experience of life and perceive the frustration in life as not frustration but instead the intelligence of life attempting to wake us up from what we think we know to what we don’t know.image

It’s that thought of good and bad that creates the perception of frustration, joy, satisfaction or failure we think that manifests the reality we live in.

“The same mind that created the problem can not solve the problem” Einstein

To live life in a different reality then the one we do, we need to alter the thoughts we think in regards to the experience of life we perceive that  in turn is the understanding of life we have.

How we think to our experience in life is the making of the reality we live in. The thinking of life in terms of good and bad is the origin of our emotions. Our emotions are not a reflection of our experience in life. They are a reflection of the thought we think to our experience in life.

“There is nothing either good or bad but thinking makes it so” Shakespeare

So what we think too life is the emotion we experience from life. Life then is first and the thought we think is after the experience of the life we live. Realizing then that the thought we think is a reflection of life allows us to respond to life practically and not react to a emotion created from a thought. That in turn frees us of the thinking that traps us.

Get The Balance Right

29 Saturday Nov 2014

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image       In the field of medicine there is term called hemostasis. It represents the balance the body maintains over itself in countless ways to regulate itself and survive and respond to conditions that effect it internally like disease and malnutrition and externally like how the body relates to the changing environment and physical conditions that effect it. This type of hemostasis is achieved without the intellect of thought. The body has a intelligence of its own that far exceeds the threshold of what the mind can think or know.

Granted we may consciously choose to run, hide or stand still to the threat of a bear but the adrenaline response the body creates to allow the mechanisms of flight or fight are more then profound. The myriad of examples of this hemostasis is beyond count as is shown in the complex relationships in how the body maintains a certain hemostasis of the correct amounts of calcium, iron and potassium to allow the heart muscle fibers to contract or the simple expression of hair follicles and the individual construct of the dermis layers of skin on a mammal which allow them to survive the climate challenges it experiences. We consciously and subconsciously look to be in tune to that infinite intelligence in a process we call spirituality, devotion to a religion we look too or how we live in a fundamental understanding of the thought that thinks only what it knows. Granted there is different levels of each as none of us are black and white on the concept of either. We normally look to find a balance between the two to survive. As one is challenged we can look to make it grow or look to the other to compensate for what we do not know.

That process of a medical hemostasis is the same conceptually to our life and even specifically to the aspects of a spiritual existence. Some can say I only need to look at the thought of this God or this book but even then there is a  search in us to help us digest what we look to learn. That can be a process we explore and look to continually grow. Be it going to church, the Synagogue, meditation, practicing acts of kindness, eating a more balanced diet or mindful choices of food, reading a scripture, book, a collection of books or journals that target certain practices we look to know better… The list goes on with out a end the ways we can get in touch with the intelligence of our creation.

Even then in looking to a practice we use, be it a example of Worship or devotion of any kind there are times when we feel more or less in tune to the practice we use to get close to the light we want to feel and know.

This is were the discussion changes from a impersonal approach to a personal approach. Some of us feel our way through life easier, some of us think our way, others communicate to each other and still others look to nature or what have you in our own way. Anyway way we do it, we are trying to get in touch with something we do not know but want to be close too, so escaping the limitations of what we think we know is essential to know what we don’t know.

Greek Mythology was and is a example of the metaphorical expression of a awareness we cannot know. Like the intelligence that creates a storm or heats the sun. So they created Gods like Poseidon, Helios , Apollo, Neptune and so on. The same metaphorical realization of this back then can be seen behind the beliefs of a religious God or practice of Zen today. The obedience, loyalty, wrath and reward are the essence of what is then and now.

So if I choose a personal approach to connect to the God of my understanding I might look to enhance the ability I have in me to appreciate better what is bringing down the walls of thought that keep me in a cage of what I understand. To bring down that cage I can use different techniques to subdue my mind.

In this writing alone I have used such techniques although they may not be known to the reader they still apply whether you know it or not.   So the slow process of identifying with the reality we understand in the thoughts of muscles, nutrients, nature and our own hand to the visualization of the spiritual world of Gods, Goddesses, mystics, Sages and things we don’t know brings us to the non conceptual awareness that lives behind what we understand.

A simple straight forward technique I like to offer you to try, is a practice I use initially to help me get closer to where I want to be. If you are like me and have a inquisitive nature then your willing to give something you don’t know a try if the source seems like something that is a resemblance of who you are, what you like and wish to be.

So I always enjoy discovering something I don’t know and I’m not the inventor of anything I only try to pass it on so what I learn and what I share is to me my own as it is to the person who learns.

Before reading anything you find inspirational or evening something benign, like starting your day be it meditation or a morning run. Give yourself 5 or 10 minutes alone. Sit in a room with a candle in front of you. Either on a table or in your hand. Light the candle and look at the flame. See the core of it in yellow, orange and red. Then look to the peripheral edges of the flame and observe the glow it has around it. At first it might not be seen but if you relax and let go of the stare but feel the flame with your mind you will see the glow around the flame. Stay with that process and observe how you look at the flame as it will change the way it appears. After you blow out the candle close your eyes and see that same glow even though you are looking with your eyes closed. Observe that for a minute or two and then begin your day how ever you do.

It’s not important to know what that is doing as it does regardless of what you think. If you haven’t practiced this before and you give it a try I hope you find a reward in it for growth in discovering you as letting go of the thought that knows, is what allows the term “even flow”.

The Space Between

25 Tuesday Nov 2014

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The messenger is often hidden to us in what we wouldn’t expect. The idea that we know how God, what ever he is, is coming to us is the making that keeps us trapped in the God we think.
Awakening to the message in life is looking at life in everything and not what I think the good or bad of life is. If I judge life then I live in a life of what I think it is. If I have acceptance of life as it is and not as I think it is, I then am not controlled by what I think and feel. That allows me a perspective of non duality in duality to receive the intelligence that creates life to direct my life.
So when confronting the so called ” good” or  “bad” feelings that create the emotions that look to own me in feelings of anger, happy, sadness and joy, it is then that I ask, what ever God is, to direct me past the limited perception I have that effects me in how I think and feel. Most of us become the emotion we feel. If we feel angry or happy we think we are that. We become the emotion. We are not the emotion. We are a consciousness experiencing that motion. The ability we have in observing the emotion we feel us what separates us from it and in doing that we respond from the consciousness we are and not the thought we think we are. That there is the difference between a finite intelligence of our brain that thinks and the infinite intelligence of our creation that is before we think.

My emotions want to own me and control me and I use them like a drug if I let them. It’s experiencing the emotion with awareness that I am not it but the observer of it, that lets me use the emotion as a medicine to see the answer I do not see, that is in front of me.
Life is teaching me on the mountain peaks in the highs I both see and feel outside of me and the valleys of my lows that cause me to pause and reflect inside me.
The fence between the two is what allows either to be. The awareness of that is what allows me to be the destiny life chooses for me and not what I think it should be.

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