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. The feelings we have in dealing with certain situations that cause us to act in a manner we regret is a example of “Cyclic Behavior”. Cyclic Behavior is mentioned in the previous blog entry “A Ghost In You”.
That behavior in us that responds to fear is not recognized for what it is. That is the ghost in us we don’t see. The thing that is controlling us but we think of it in a way that it doesn’t appear to us as it is. It hides in us in a shell that is chamelion and we react in a way to push the fear away because we experience it in a emotion and don’t see it in us as a ghost but instead we think it is real. It isn’t real however and the fear that it traps us in, lives in a manner that survives in us by pretending to be something it isn’t. We push it away by reactions of anger, judgement, depression, excitement or any manner we act in that causes us to feel remorse after it because of how we reacted to it.
That cyclic behavior we manifest is a pattern of behavior we created in our childhood to deal with feelings we were incapable of at the time because we weren’t given the right emotional childhood development and as such we never created the correct coping mechanism to deal with things like confrontation, criticism and maintaining boundaries of behavior that allowed us to have self confidence in addressing life in all its expressions in appropriate ways.
The remorse, the depression and excitement are all part of the cycle of behavior that creates itself over and over again. This is how we continually push the fear away in ways that allows us to avoid addressing it and thus letting the fear continue to control us.
Addiction is looked at by many as the use of exogenous substance to create a euphoric feeling that we become dependent upon. Addiction however is not limited to the use of some external substance that creates “the high”. Addiction is the coping mechanism we find to dull our pain and medicate ourself with not only a external drug but also a endorphin response to stop the pain. That metabolic release of endorphins created by certain behavior is the coping mechanism we use to feel better about situations in life we do not know how to address. The addiction, what ever it is, is the coping mechanism we use to treat the emotional pain we experience from our cyclic behavior. Even if we are able to stop the addictive behavior we use to treat our emotional pain with and don’t learn how to treat that pain in a appropriate way we will find another addiction to deal with the fear in us.
Addiction is often thought of as illegal or antisocial behavior but it is much more then that. It is any behavior we engage in to “feel” better that causes us to feel remorse from it afterwards. In that awareness we can see addiction in a different light. It’s quite common for us to view many as a success in a figurative sense from a societal standpoint. Be it wealth, fame or recognition in many different ways but often as we learn a more deeper view of the person we can see how there life was filled with fear and the succes we saw them as having was merely a way to hide from the fear or the ghost they did not wish to see in them self.
We have to first see the fear in us before we can address it. If all we do is react to our fear and then put a bandaid on the remorse we feel because of it. We then do not do anything to treat it. It’s seeing the fear or looking at the chameleon it hides behind and responding to the situation that triggers our fear in a “correct” manner is what enables us to create the appropriate coping mechanisms we need to resond to life and not react to a fear in life. The pause that we embrace when confronted with fear is the space we need to have to say no to fear and yes to what is appropriate. It isn’t a magical wand that we somehow find in life that heals our fear, pain and addiction. It is the ability we find in us to pause before we react that allows us to respond to life and not react to it with a behavioral defense to fear.
Einstein, “The same mind that created the problem can not fix the problem”
The “strength” we find in that pause allows us to respond to life and not react to it, is how we discover a connection to something innately in us. It’s a connection we have to life and not our thinking that frees us of our own limitations and allows us to grow in ways we never knew. It is because we allow our thinking to trap us in our our fear that creates the cage that holds us. It is letting go of that thinking that allows us to know something greater then it and then be directed by life and not how we think. Our thinking is the crux of our problem so being able to step out of the thinking that our fear lives in is what frees us of it.
Buddha, “no one saves us but ourself, no one can and no one may, we ourselves must walk the path”
Cyclic behavior is often over looked. That fundamental program inside us to deal with life as we experience it. Things like Engrams (blog entries; Dropping In & Undertow) are hidden in our subconscious and we react to life in a programmed way when anything is experienced in our adult life that triggers that Engram to play.
The feelings we grew up with that are planted in our subconscious are replayed in our adult life and we think we make conscious choices but we don’t. Instead we make decisions based on a subconscious feeling to either a positive engram that helps us or a negative engram that hurts us.
So the “good” or the “bad” of our child hood is replayed inside us when we experience sonething that reminds of our childhood. Be it the tone of someones voice, the subtle demeanor of a stranger or the emotions we feel from soneone else can either attract us or repell us because of the subconscious feelings we react too but are unaware of.
This explains why we are constantly attracted to a similar type of person. The programming of our cchildhood is manifested in our adult life because of the experiences we have had.
Being aware of this subconscious reaction we have in life of feeling a certain way in certain situations is what can help us turn right instead of left and not be controlled by the feelings of fear that haunt us.
So breaking the pattern of negative behavior we seem to be trapped by is walking through the fear that wants us to react in a certain way. Our desire to be “liked” or drawn to someone is tied to the Engrams being played in our subconscious.
Being aware of the fear that is responsible for how we are reacting to life and not responding to life does not free us or take away the ghosts of our subconscious. We have to confront our ghosts in a conscious manner to overcome the subconscious control they have over us. So instead of avoiding the fear by pushing it away, we need to realize that pushing the fear away is what allows the fear to control us. We have to open the closet of our childhood and confront those Ghoats “memories” in order to overcome them.
That fear of our childhood is just as strong now is it what was when we were a kid so we essentially have to be brave enough to be the child in us and walk through that fear. That entails not reacting to life from a feeling we have of good or bad but instead responding to a situation as it is and not the feelings it inspires. Responding to life and not reacting to life is what frees us of our self made limitations and allows us to not let our feelings control us but instead respond to life as it is and not the programmed thinking that traps us in fear.
So knowing this is helpful to recognize what we need to do to break old patterns of behavior we want to change. Knowing it means nothing though if we don’t step up to the plate inside ourself to see ourself and change the behavior we have allowed to control us. That is the fear we push away that controls us by having us react in a way to avoid it (the fear). That fear is only alive as long as try to avoid it. Once we allow ourself to walk into it we find a strength in us that we never knew we had.
“Angels fall like rain and love is all of heaven away. Stars come down in you and love you can’t give it away. Inside you time moves and she don’t fade. The ghost in you” Psychedelic Furs, The Ghost In You
Living your life, you can’t help but want to find a meaning in it. The idea that your life has a purpose and you are discovering that and are a example of that purpose is in bred in all of us. As to think your life is merely a dance of one that isn’t judged, measured or given a grade of approval or disapproval goes against the idea of having a purpose.
In order to have a purpose then sonething has to be achieved. Maybe that concept off achievement is why we embrace a religion to give us a example to measure ourself with. To feel there is a parent or something more then us that is bigger then us so we can feel a sense of approval.
The purpose of life has to have something we achieve and the merit of that achievement is given by the God of our understanding. So the “thinking” we have a purpose in life is the same “thinking” that establishes the religion or doctrine of thought we live under.
Considering our life is constantly changing and so to our perspective or thoughts then so is our purpose and achievement. So in essence we create both our understanding of a God and our purpose as our life unfolds and nothing stays the same. What that is saying is what ever “nothing” is, it s the only thing that doesn’t change.
As our life changes so does our thoughts of our purpose, achievement and God. Even though our undersrahding of a God may change we need to believe that God, regardless of how we understand God, doesn’t change. It’s just our understanding or “thought” of God that changes. So if Nothing stays the same except what ever “nothing” is and that simply is because we don’t know or think what “nothing” is, so “nothing” then is the only thing that doesn’t change and if there is a purpose that is judged by a “God”, then the only thing that “God” could be is “nothing” as the concept of a God is something that doesn’t change even though our understanding of God does change.
So if “God” is the creator of our purpose and gives us achievement and as such that God then has to be consistent although how we think God is not consistent we still need to think God is consistent.
So then the only thing that is consistent and does not change is “nothing”. “Nothing” is the only thing we don’t “think” and as that is not of our thougt, then God has to be nothing as God and/or nothing are the only things we can never know.
“There is a feelin’ I get when I look to the west and my spirit is crying for leavin’ In my thoughts I have seen rings of smoke through the trees and the voices of those who stand lookin’ Zeppelin, STH.
That concept of embracing “nothing” as God does not soothe our ego and our wanting to be approved of. We want to know what approves us and what we are judged by. So to actually know God then is a very disheartening prospect as you can never get to know God you can only get close to God. That journey then is not something anyone would want to take as it would be a journey that takes away the something we think we are and come closer to nothing which is the destruction of something. Something, however, always wants to know or think itself and that isn’t a path to God.
So maybe in all our searching and “wanting” to be something of purpose is a fairytale we never want to see through as that is seeing ourselves as nothing and no one wants to be nothing. We all want to be a image of something we “think”.
Our mind then, that we see ourselves with, is the obstacle to being one with God. As the mind that thinks cannot think God and only sonething is in thought and the nothing of the intelligence of life or God is outside the thought that wants to know.
“Does it feel like your life has become a catastrophe? Oh, it has to be for you to grow, boy. And when you look through the years and see what you could have been. Oh, what you might have been. If you’d had more time. But there are times when you feel you are part of the scenery. Oh, all the greenery is coming down, boy. ‘Coz your the joke of the neighborhood. Why should you care if your feeling good. You took the long way home. (Ooo yeah) Take the long way home.” Super Tramp, Take The Long Way Home
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“Who are You. cause I really want to know I know there is a place you walked Where love falls from trees. My heart is a broken cup. I only feel right on my knees I spit out like a sewer hole Yet still recieve your kiss. How can I measure up to anyone know After such a love as this. Come on tell me Who are you Cause I really want to know” The Who, Who Are You
If my mind is not capable of understanding “What is” which is everything, and it’s quite obvious the mind doesn’t know everything. On the contrary, the mind is a cartoon trying to create a understanding of what it can never know. So the words we use to know reality, ourselves or the life we live is pretty much pointless. If you can conceptualize that inability we have in using our mind to know sonething we never can then you can see that the best we ever can know of what we are and what life is, is meaningless.
What ever we think we are is the same as a grain of sand compared to the making of a desert. It is irrelevant. Yet even though it is irrelevant the mind in its own nature wants to know.
The mind is so reality can be percieved. Most scientist will tell you that reality is only contingent upon our own observation of it. So reality is a illusion of merely what we think. That prism of reflection is the ghost in the mirror. It is a idea looking at what it wants to know but never can. That observation gives “everythig” a reflection of itself. It is the mirror that lets “what is” which is “everything” see itself.
In that obscure perspective of seeing what you can never know is why we are broken. That “broken” is not a thought of good or bad. It is what allows Love or God to see itself.
So a conceptual identity is not real. Instead it is the shadow wanting to be what it is the shadow of or the reflectiom in the mirror wanting to be the image it’s reflecting. That is why the mind lives in fear. The mind wants to “be” which it never can. That is our deepest fear. Our inability to let go of that conceptual understanding and be the intrinsic nature of who we are that is not known to us in a understanding of thought Is our deepest fear.
So as I fall to my knees in my “brokenness” I can use that “broken” to see what the mind obscures in thought.
“Ashes to Ashes Funk to funky We know major Tom 4 a junkie Strung out in Heavens High Headed for a all-time low Time and again I tell myself I will stay clean tonight But the little green wheels are following me Oh no, not again I’m stuck with a valuable friend” David Bowie, Ashes To Ashes
So as I ask myself why I’m broken, the understanding is beyond the mind or thought. As it is necessary to be broken from the minds perspective to escape the cage that “knowing” traps us in. So my “broken” is a crack in the glass that lets me see through what I want to know. By looking to see and not know I can “be” and in being I can point at what I see. So what I write is not what I know. It is what I see. So if someone reads what I write and wants to know Instead of look at what the words are pointing at, it will make no sense to the mind as it’s not of the mind.
So my burden then can be my salvation and what I point at is seeing that there is no personal salvation. There is no you or I. We are all one. We is everything and as such if my mind, thought or ego looks to save itself it is lost to itself. The thought of “I” creates the cage that separates something from everything. The something is the shadow, the ego or the thoughts of “I am”. So as I live in a perception of thinking I can look to become “everything” which is my true nature and by letting go of what I think I am. I become what I am.
So as I look to save everything besides myself, I in turn save everything which is my true self. It then doesn’t matter what I or anyone else thinks. For by being concerned about what someone else thinks is as pointless as being concerned about what I think.
So courage then is to each of us to walk with our “brokenness” not as a crutch or a pity. It’s to look in it for our true nature. The everything that is behind the something we think we are. The same as the Sun and the Moon are in the sky regardless of whether we see them or not. As it is our mind that wants to judge ourself on what we or others think of us. Our faith or courage then is to be okay with ourself whether or not we “think” we are or aren’t okay.
“Oh let the Sun beat down upon my face Stars to fill my dream I’m a traveler of both time and space, to be where I have been To sit with elders of the gentle race, this world has seldom seen They talk of days for which they sit and wait and all will be revealed Talk and song from tounges of lifting grace, whose sounds caress my ear But not a word could I relate The story was quite clear” Led Zeppelin, Kashmir
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What I “think” I know, isn’t. It’s only a thought trying to interpret what the mind perceived. Something is experienced and the brain attempts to understand it. A aspect of “awareness” is recognizing the limitation of what “I” or what the brain that “thinks” has. It can’t know “what is” or “reality”. It can only think it in the confines of the brains limitations.
In seeing that one comes to know that nothing is as it seems.”‘Cause if nothing is the way it seems Then this life is just a haunted dream And all this love is just falling down through these years He says I think of the beauty I’ve had And all it does is make me feel so sad First they make you think like your riding high Then they toss you off in the sky And all this life is just falling down through the years” Steve Winwood, Judgement Day
So the good and the bad are not what they appear to be. As that good and bad is life speaking to me. I have to embrace the perceived good and bad as both are ways life Is communicationing to me. Life doesn’t use words or thought to teach me. Life responds to life and not some contruct of or what a brain thinks. Once you see nothing, you see it in evrything “When I try to understand she just opens up her hands” Eddie Vedder, Cold Hard Sun
If I am not what I think I am, which is nothing more then words trying point at the limitation of my brain, then I find the beauty in life in everything. So the bad or the good is not real. They are something the brain thinks so it can believe it knows what it never can. What frees us of our limitations is not believing what we think we know is real. It’s recognizing those limitations of what we think, that frees us from our minds inability to know what it can not and we then by not holding onto what we think, we can escape the walls of thought that block us from “seeing” the intelligence of what created us.
Words limit us to a understanding of thought if we only “think” what they mean. So instead of thinking we know what a word means we can escape the wall of thought that limits a word by, instead, seeing what it points too. so thinking of money instead of some piece of paper or a bank statement you can think of money as a way of service or helping someone or the world then you escape the limiations of a definition and instead find a practical to make money in many ways. That then translates to prosperity and as you serve prosperity prosperity serves you.
It’s taking a word and instead of thinking it in q box, finding a way to see something without the restrictions of understanding it or “knowing” it.
That “Nothing” of no thought is the pure potentiality of everything. It’s the nothing that the mind thinks over that is the creation of everything. It’s easy to “think” the word nothing and not see what it points too. It’s only till you let go of the thought of nothing will you see what it points too. Once you see that something you then see it in everything. Thought can not conceptualize one in a figurative sense. Thought can only think one in contrast to something else. So as you think there is always two or a duality. Thought creates a need to understand in relation to something else. By thinking you create a contrast to something. That is duality. Duality lives in thought. The non duality of no mind is nothing. It is a intelligence that creates everything. So seeing that intelligence of everything or nothing and attempting to share to someone in words using the brain is why words can only point to it. They can’t define it because by its essence non duality, nothing, God, Mohammed, or what have you is the nothing you can not know that creates everything. So as you see and not think, you see nothing in everything while anyone else you try to convey that too who only looks to know it will be lost trying to think it. If someone points to nothing with words and others see that and not think it they then see nothing, Buddha, Christ or what have you in everything. If you attempt to put what someone points at into words and you “think” the word means something then you no longer see non duality, you become a thought of duality. Our thinking is unique to our experiences. As it is our experiences that create the ideas of how we perceive our reality. That contrast of the one of everything to the duality of thought is why no-one understands something in exactly the same way as someone else. So as one person see’s the one of non-duality they can not help but put it in words of there own making. To take nothing and point at it with words creates something if you think it. That something is duality.The nothing is lost or overlooked in the duality of thinking you know.
“Think about it, there must be higher love. Down in the heart or hidden in the stars above. Without it, life is a wasted time. Look inside your heart. I will look inside mine. Things look so bad everywhere In this whole world, what is fair? We walk blind and we try to see falling behind in what could be. I could light up the night with my soul on fire. I could make the sun shine from pure desire. Let me feel that love come over me. Let me feel how strong it could be. Bring me a higher love Steve Winwood, Bring Me A Higher Love
We all think the reality we live. Some attempt to overcome the limitations of what we think and find an intelligence inside us that shows a reflection we experience outside of us. Others look at what they experience and the reality they perceive as who they are. What they think they are is what they believe they are. A reality externally based as opposed to an internally based reality. “I Am” as opposed to “The I Am That I Am”. The ego as opposed to the observer of the ego. The control as opposed to humility. To even comprehend this means you are drawn to an internal awareness. If not, you would only see the one side of the coin. The duality of life is all you would know. The good verses the bad. This does not make sense to an ego based individual. To see the non-duality that reflects the duality is the awakening or the transition from an unconscious reality to a conscious reality. The understanding that the thought is both a conscious voice and an unconscious reaction. To walk in utter conscious reality is a pointless topic to me. The idea of “no struggle” is a misnomer, as we all struggle between the two and if our existence has a purpose it is the struggle to be or become aware that allows awareness to be. Otherwise awareness would not be if there wasn’t a opposite to it. The dark allows the light. The hot the cold and so on. So if our struggle is to see the light. To walk a path to awareness then our struggle is not bad and awareness is not good. They each are so the other can be. Words only point in a direction and they don’t mean anything except to the person that wants to think they understand what it means. The one that doesn’t want to limit themselves to a understanding their mind wants to think it knows and would rather look to the path of a intelligence that creates life will then look to separate themselves from the thought that limits them. Words are used in many different ways to say the same thing from a different perspective. Words like anger, shenpa, attachment, fear, worry all are a thought in a desire to know a feeling we experience. We want to label it. Granted some words look to identify how a feeling affects us while others look to give the feeling an identity. Whatever way we define or interpret our feelings we can see how anger, depression, shenpa, worry and so on is our subconscious manifesting itself from a thought to an emotion. That awareness to look at our emotions as the physical expression of our subconscious can offer us the opportunity to address the subconscious we are often oblivious too. By seeing our external reaction to life we can take that and use it as a sign pointing inward to heal the worry, anger or fear. If we only look to fix the external conditions that manifest our internal or subconscious reality then we never fix the, so called problem. The subconscious then has no choice but to reinvent the “problem” in the same or another way. That, to me, is karma. Karma is not good or bad. Karma is what is and as long as we think over karma or “what is”, what is has no other choice but to express itself. “What Is” then is life. It is the intelligence that creates everything and as long as we label “what is” with a thought that limits it, the thought will limit us from the intelligence of life or God. Our pain, anger, shenpa or struggle is the path for us to search inside our self to discover the intelligence of life that allows us to overcome our thoughts that keep us trapped in a existence of good and bad, dark and light, warm and cold, hate and like That thing we can’t label or know is a peace beyond any understanding. The heaven in our hell. That then is the “reward” of letting go of what we think we know (good vs bad). To uncover beneath those thoughts the intelligence that is what we are. The ‘I AM’ that I am. The door from what I think to what I am. That step of looking in and not out is the action only we can take. No one can take away the thought we think that limits us to an identity of “I am”. Only we can look past the thought of “I Am” to be the “I am that I am”. So what am I to do now, you might ask yourself. That is the journey inside you that you walk alone. No-one can walk that path inside you, but you. The best anyone can do is offer their own experience to you and that can offer you the ability to see your own struggle in theirs. Some of us can find the path of letting go of the thoughts that limit is by faith alone. A unquestioning belief in a higher power offers the antidote. Some look at a scientific relationship to that intelligence in such areas as quantum physics and so on that show the intelligence hidden behind the thought that thinks it knows. Others can look at psychology and see how ideas like “engrams” which are ingrained memories often from our childhood have a stranglehold on us in our life. Keeping us locked in memories we can’t let go of. In my book “Digging Deep” I talk about addressing that ambiguous path we all will face when we step of out or our ego and look at ourself in a observing manner. Having the will to look for the answer is what will give us the answer. Seeing the fear, anger, depression in an observing manner and not becoming the anger, worry and fear is the path to walking through it. Most of us want to turn away from it or find something “good” to cover our “bad”. Pausing instead and walking into that feeling will give us the answer to letting go of it and becoming more than anything we can know. A peace from inside us that overshadows any impermanent feelings of happy or sad the external world can offer.
Words like subjective, objective, presence, humility, ego, letting go, attachment and so on are ambiguous in nature but we think we know what they mean or imply in a universal concept.
It’s that thinking that we know thatkeeps us trapped in the existence or lifestyle we experience.
If we wish to change our life and the experiences we have in it then we need to change our perception. Which simply means we need to broaden our perspective which is letting go of those definitions we build walls with that we live in.
That might be a visual you can use to see a objective and subjective reality. The person that lives in those walls of definition or thought is relating to the world from that place of experience and they or we recreate the experience we think. So our subjective thinking is the walls that we live in.
Our ability to “think” or seeourselves objectively is what enables us to change our reality and recreate our life experiences to a creation of our conscious perception. So the idea as we think is as we are can be given a figurative identity that allows us to conceptualize a strategy to reinvent ourselves.
That strategy is recreating the mind to a different mind. The thought of what I am to the idea of creating the I am that I am.
So the mold of my own creation can be changed by seeing the internal identity I live in as my ego.
That practicality of this concept maybe visible to someone now but the ability to invoke control over the thoughts we think can very well be limited to a transient conscious intention that quickly is replaced by the programming of our subconscious.
To reprogram our subconscious to attain the wealth of what ever form we desire is a process that can be quite challenging. What we perceive a lack of wealth or abundance in, such as a relationship, self confidence, connection to a feeling of purpose in our life or even the simple concept of monetary gain is a self inflicted wound that our subconscious is creating and the worry and fear we have of not having the wealth we want is what creates the lack of it.
That can seem like a quagmire, maze or a destination without a map. The map or the awareness of the circle of existence that recreates itself is knowing that the thinking we use is the problem and our solution is letting go of the thinking. The worry, fear and anxiety that are the seeds that grow the weeds we live our life in. That is what can seem “crazy” to someone who only believes in what they think which is a ego based reality. So coming to the point of being willing to discard the only thing we know, which is what we think, and look to a connection of something we don’t know is the making of establishing a life based on a intelligence that manifests life which is something we can never intellectually know. The thought is not bad and the thought is not good. Thought is the ability to witness the manifestation of life. Our problem is when the thought takes credit for life and our peace. If you open this door that looks like a shadow in your mind you can see how the great teachers of our time pointed to this and used this door to free us of our thought of “I am” to become what we are before we think we are, the I am that I am.
This is a process that lasts a life time and it is only the one step we are taking now that matters. The idea of a destination to arrive at is what limits us from ever starting on the path or freeing ourselves of the unconscious life we are victim too.
The fear we think is the fear we live. Learning how to let go of that fear is the joy of now. It is the epiphany we experience along the path of courage in having a objective reference to our subjective experience.
Being the watcher of the emotion and not becoming the emotion. It’s not something we can fail at because as soon as we observe the emotion no matter how long it controls us, it is in that moment of objective awareness we are free of the subjective limitation that is the hell of our making. In that moment we become the heaven of our making. So where ever we are, we are where we are suppose to be and in that observation we become what we have always been but thought over it. That thought is a shadow, it is a pseudo reality, a dream that lives in a idea we think is real. Knowing the manifestation of our life is the creation of our own making is what can help us stop looking outside outside ourselves for a answer and instead look inside us for our salvation.
The intelligence of the world outside us is the creation of what is inside us.
We all want someone else to tell us how to open that illusory door or lift the window of our consciousness to witness and influence our subconscious but of course you can see how that is impossible to do as we all have our own key to unlock the door to what we think to become what we are.
If I’m looking to escape the prison of myself I then need to see how I created it. What thoughts control my actions? Well if I look at my actions I then can start to change those actions and changing the action will reveal the thoughts that hide behind them. As the thought is seen for what it isn’t it will disappear like the fog in the sun.
There are no big or grand things to change about us to let the light of something more then us become us. It’s looking at the small things we do each day and changing them to something that is not them.
When you start asking yourself what are the small things I am doing that create my reality you will begin to become aware of them. It’s feeling like your crazy doing what doesn’t seem normal that the thoughts that control you start to let go of you.
Letting go then is the answer. We have to see what we are holding onto in order to let go of it. That letting go or door to awareness of letting go is hidden in our fear, anxiety, anger, jealousy, depression and worry. Those ambiguous terms are thoughts. The thought is controlling our actions. If we look to our action we can see what we have the power to let go of. That internal courage to let go of that action, is the making for the intelligence we are to become what we truly are. So as we let go so do we become. The falling apart of what we think we are is the coming together of who we are.
. We don’t understand things as they are. We understand things from our ability to understand. Meaning its more about wanting to live in the limitations of what we know that threatens us from knowing anything more then what we do know.
The more willing we are to let go of what we know, the more apt we are to know what we don’t know. So if life is simply the abundance of experiencing everything, we then can serve our evolution by letting go of the constraints of what we think we know that conflicts with our experience of life and perceive the frustration in life as not frustration but instead the intelligence of life attempting to wake us up from what we think we know to what we don’t know.
It’s that thought of good and bad that creates the perception of frustration, joy, satisfaction or failure we think that manifests the reality we live in.
“The same mind that created the problem can not solve the problem” Einstein
To live life in a different reality then the one we do, we need to alter the thoughts we think in regards to the experience of life we perceive that in turn is the understanding of life we have.
How we think to our experience in life is the making of the reality we live in. The thinking of life in terms of good and bad is the origin of our emotions. Our emotions are not a reflection of our experience in life. They are a reflection of the thought we think to our experience in life.
“There is nothing either good or bad but thinking makes it so” Shakespeare
So what we think too life is the emotion we experience from life. Life then is first and the thought we think is after the experience of the life we live. Realizing then that the thought we think is a reflection of life allows us to respond to life practically and not react to a emotion created from a thought. That in turn frees us of the thinking that traps us.
The creator doesn’t look at the creation in the same way as someone that appreciates it or uses it does.
They see and experience it with appreciation for what feelings it inspires or the practicality and comfort it implores.
The writer who tells a story of lust, disparity, hunger and gain, feels a sense of accomplishment for discovering in them self the ability to create the image of what they only felt. The same holds true for a artist that paints a canvass with color and meaning to provoke a feeling.
So what someone sees is not what the creator feels as the creator looks at the unseen to manifest the object someone appreciates or feels inspired by. As the artist feels it from the unseen to be what is seen so the object of creation is felt first and then seen. The viewer or user, though, of creation sees it first, and then is inspired to feel.
Definitions and the words we use to define them with will change over time as what we think of ourself and the world changes. Words like God, awareness and letting go to name name only a few change in definition to us as we do too.
So for today enlightenment means to me the ability to see past the hurt and the joy I think, to realize it is only a color used to paint a image on a canvass to see what the creator feels. A split screen view of the thoughts that think myself and life against the awareness that feels the creation before it is understood in thought. A crack in the glass that separates the two that you seem to see through when you look to it. It’s not really anything “good” or something you own as you can’t really show anyone it and the best you can do at describing it is throw words at it that you hope land close because you know the word that has a meaning can never touch what isn’t known but is only felt.
So as others raise the glass to rejoice in the success they think they are or drink to not feel their gloom they do not want to own, you know neither are real as they are a thought in a illusion that doesn’t have a home. So when you raise the toast or sing the blues, you know neither are, what you are. They are just paint on a canvass for a thought that thinks it’s real.