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I was stopping by a clients house yesterday morning I have done some work on and as I was passing through his back yard I noticed a Raccoon that was trapped in a cage that was set last night as the yard has been trampled by them lately.
Well it was around 9am when I saw him which means he has been there for sometime and as I passed him my heart felt his energy and I looked into his eyes and saw a child afraid of what was to come. That unknown that seemed ominous to him as he was in a place he could not escape and his autonomy was lost to the owner of his new cage.
As I went inside and spoke to the family about some buisiness I kept thinking of my new friend, scared in his confined space.
Before parting I asked my client if he would like me to take the raccoon in the cage and bring it into the woods some ways away. Which he agreed too.
Who knows why some feel or see more then others. When you do though it can feel at times like a tug of war. A battle in your heart to be okay with things you want to make right but whether you can or not seems like a fight between your conscience and your heart. Your heart speaks with out words or social acceptance were as your conscience is a scale balancing it all. Trying to find a way to do what feels right yet gives your sense of self worth a imaginary reward in thought.
As I loaded the cage into the jeep I could see in my new friends eyes a fear and loneliness of something he knew he was going to miss. I speak with words to my fuzzy friends but I know it’s what comes from that Chakra in my heart that they understand and I focus that like my third eye and give them what I feel which I see is all I really can.
As pulled along side a thin stretch of woods by a riverside I set the cage facing the woods of his new home and as I opened the door I said “Ilove you and good bye” without words but instead a feeling I don’t own but am able to convey from a place that connects me to were everything is one.
He didn’t run away. In fact he never made a noise the whole time we were together. It reminded me of myself facing a scary fate and knowing nothing I can say will do any good so words aren’t worth the thought they think they own.
I saw myself in him and felt like a failure for not being able to do what he wanted which was to be set free in the yard and reunited with his mother who had sat beside the cage he was in for a few hours at dawn. Which the client had told me about. If I want to be saved and I can’t save my fuzzy little friend and all I have is empty words then what good am I.
“Vows are spoken to be broken, feeling are intense words are trivial, pleasures remain so does the pain, words are meaningless and forgettable. All I ever wanted, all I ever needed is here in my arms. Words are very unnecessary, they can only do harm” Depeche Mode, Enjoy The Silence
So as my scared new friend slowly stepped out of his cage and into a foriegn home I couldn’t help watch him take those slow steps and feel what he was feeling walking into the unknown. I felt guilty for taking him from his home and making walk through fear to create a new home for him to own. I see it as my own fear walking through the dark. It doesn’t matter whether it is day or night as the unknown doesn’t live in a shadow of the sun or a reflection of the moon. It is everything that is and letting go of that minuscule world I think I own to become one with all that is, is a fear of letting go to what I know which by my nature is something I don’t want to do. Even though I see the road to take and can behold the wealth of stepping into the unknown it’s still something “I” don’t want to do as all “I” wants is to know and save myself and anyone else from the fear of letting go.
“I’m the man in the box, won’t you come and save me, save me. He who tries will be wasted, feed me eyes now you’ve sewn them shut. I’m the dog that gets beat, won’t you come and save me, save me” Man In The Box, Alice N Chains
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Thanks for this… a very striking image. Reminded of Ballad in Plain D: “Are birds free from the chains of the skyway?” http://www.bobdylan.com/us/songs/ballad-plain-d
Hey Tiramit. We were speaking about Joseph Campbell before and you mentioned on of his books. Check out on YouTube a interview Bill Moyer did with Campbell. It was quite inspiring.
Hey, thanks, Kosmo. I’m gonna check out your blog tonight and get to know you better. Thanks for stopping by
Wonderful story. Thanks for sharing.
Yes, all of life becomes a metaphor for the spiritual journey. Getting out of the cage is an image which frequently came up in dreams for me. We have two budgies and they hate having to leave their cage. I used to get dreams of budgies that were at various stage of having left the cage. Like sitting at the open cage door. Or being out of the cage but walking instead of flying.
These dreams were always mirroring to me my current status of freedom vs fear.
I guess it doesn’t matter whether the metaphors come up in dreams or in real life. Source uses both ways to teach us.
I think so cool to be abl bro relate to people like you and others Karin and hear how they see the same thing in a different way. When ever I looked into the raccoons eyes and even know when I think of it I see my fear of tomorrow in a metaphorical way. Be it the challenges I am facing now or the time when I will embrace the fear of losing this life and move onto what is next. I say many wines but when you see it in one way you see it 10,000. Thanks Karin for being part of the journey
I need to check my spell check on my phone before I send my comments for now on. Hopefully you can decipher it!
So touching. How I am not crying I do not know. But I am sad. Thank you for sharing your experience and feelings.
Suzanne you made my night as you seem to feel exactly how I did and still do thinking about my little raccoon friend.
“I want to save the world and I can’t save myself, ohh wont you save me” I think that line is from a song. Not sure though but it seems so fitting to me. I’m sitting out in my back yard with my cat in my lap as she’s so comfortable simply being. There is a full moon and sometimes you can’t help but wonder what it all means.
“Been Dazed & Condused for so long it’s not true” Zepoelin
Thanks for checking out my blog. Sometimes I think I’m writing something that means sonething and other times I wonder it its just my ego wanting to shine. Either way though it is what it is and that’s all it is, what ever it is.
God Bless